if we really have to paint tomorrow
i might just loose it. why now? the inspection is on monday. can we focus on making sure we’re ready instead of painting?
oh right, we don’t do shit that makes sense in the military :D
Neurolove.me: The 10 Commandments for a Good Life
1. I accept that I’m not perfect, and there’s no perfect time – Too many people are hanging around and waiting for the perfect opportunity – or the time when they are perfect and have all the skills they need. But life rewards effort; so get out there and work…
snow is so beautiful
(Source: ikickath, via thenameisfrost)
Haven’t Posted Something In a While
Well, I’m sitting here thinking.
We all know how it goes from here….
So…I guess someone found the post I wrote a few days ago (the Suicidal thoughts are normal post) and my command got a whiff of it.
I can see why they’d think it’s a red flag, but I’m seriously fine. Sometimes we just have a super shitty day that you’re in a negative mindset and you just let a lot of pent up things out. Well, that was mine. I guess people think I’m crazy…unstable…that I need help.
It’s funny how people start to care so much after something huge happened to you. Not saying any of the people expressing concern aren’t good people, but just late.
I am not that same person I was in December. I’ve come back from that slump, but I can’t lie: it’s hard for me to open up to people.
THIS HAS BEEN AN ONGOING ISSUE FOR YEARS! Since I was 6 yrs old if I want to be legit.
I might fluctuate between being happy or sad or emotional but that doesn’t mean I’m bipolar or have something wrong with me.
I know I have issues, I just don’t express them because clearly, it’s gotten me nothing but misplaced pity and worry.
I don’t need anyone to worry over me…
I just need to be free. I really think my 11 yr old sister has more freedom than I do at the age of 21.
But ce la vie ya know? I just need to get this out.
I don’t need my command, the people on my ship to worry about me. Cause I have a feeling they are reading this right now and thinking “OH MY GOD, SHE NEEDS HELP! WE CAN’T KEEP HER HERE!”
Maybe if freedom of speech wasn’t taken with such a worryful mindset, I could write a more honest blog.
I can’t wait to get out of the navy and write about everything without having to worry that my command will threaten me with locking me up in the medical ward like I’m some kind of lepper.
Me whenever someone says cutting is just for attention
The fucking nerve is right. It isn’t something done for attention, it’s something done for reasons known only to the person.
(via recoveryisbeautiful)
“She’s such a party pooper sometimes….” she pouted. “Seriously, there’s nothing wrong with making other people happy, ya know?”
”Well, I guess it was my fault kind of so she was right and not everyone likes snow so..”
(On my mobile)
“Snow is beautiful and magical. Who wouldn’t like it?” she asked.
